Sunday, November 22, 2009
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
so here’s the deal. taking a break from the blogging stuff - way back in, oh what was it? april? – seeeeeeeeeeeeeeemed like a fabulous idea at the time. but now it’s, um, turning september in less than 8 hours and there’s hardly been a blip on the screen from me.
i’d make some excuses here, but really? i just didn’t want to write. no offense to anyone who cares that much. (and yeah, if you do, chill, plz? ‘k. thx.) A LOT happened this summer. some spectacular stuff, some funny stuff, and some pretty stressful stuff. and it’s all stored somewhere deep and comfortable in the caverns of my brain. and maybe someday i’ll write about some of it and bore you with my ramblings then. but for now….i’m just going to start with today.
because today i got to analyze testing data. all. day. long. after i spent the entire week last week doing the same thing (on my own, mind you. who says i ain’t a self-starter?). i finally had to laugh to myself because who knew that looking at numbers and state reading objectives could make a girl soooooo incredibly homesick. because that is what happened. and those of you from the life i just moved away from will get a kick out of this: i missed data groups. and continuous improvement. and, dare I say it? okay. i'll whisper it...taks. (if you are reading this and suddenly feel clueless, please don’t fret. your justifiable ignorance - a word i use with only the most POSITIVE connotation - really is a strong indicator that i should have a life away from those three things. because seriously? they should not be the topics of 94.6% of my conversations.)
please laugh now.
trust me…..this nostalgic feeling will fade very quickly. as in, just because i got all misty-eyed at how much easier all of this use to be for me, it doesn’t mean it’s worth it to come back to.
and maybe…..maybe it was just easier today to admit that i missed the “easiness” of the Texas numbers game (seriously. i heart the okies, but they need to get some of their shit together when it comes to this) instead of the people. because somedays it’s harder to explain why i left them.
...and to myself.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
most of the time.
but for the sake of honesty, let's just say this hasn't been the easiest year for me when it comes to doing what i normally do best - connecting with my kiddos. and i know that everybody has years like this. ebb and flow and all of that. it's just, i HAVEN'T for a long long long time (like maybe since 2001-2002?). and for me, if i don't feel like i'm connecting then i also don't feel like i'm teaching at the same level that i hold myself up to. and for a perfectionist (don't laugh. i hide it very well.) that is extremely hard to deal with. so my reaction hasn't been probably the best one i could have. i feel myself pulling further away from my kids instead of working to build relationships. and i also find myself blaming my students - for being too cynical, for not being very open, for being apathetic . . .
and then the guilt sets in because i have three weeks like i've just had. when every. single. day. i learn something new about a different student. and yall, these new pieces of knowledge are things i wish i didn't have to know. simply because NO child should have to have these experiences in their story. and again, for the sake of honesty, there's nothing i can do to FIX anything. and THAT is hard to admit.
why am i writing about this today? i don't really know. other than maybe it is a means to explain why i haven't been writing much of the fluff lately? it seems trite to hear what i hear during the day and then come home and write about slicing my finger while cutting tomatoes or to write about my new obsession with napping . . .
and even though they aren't really connected, but are somewhat related, i guess now is the time to address something else: hopefully in the next few months i'll be able to tell you i am employed in oklahoma. cuz yep. it's time to get on the road again. most of you who read this already knew this was coming, but nothing's a secret now. i've let the appropriate people at work know, so now i feel like i can freely share all job-related anxiety with the "masses." i am in the process of retrieving all of my transcripts (note to the young'uns - DON'T TAKE SUMMER SCHOOL FROM A DIFFERENT COLLEGE EVERY SUMMER) in order to process my oklahoma certification. i'll find out about my test on march 6 and will have another chance to retake it if i need to in april. so. if you are a pray-er please keep this whole job hunt thing in mind. i'm ready to be closer to my family (hi ica and j and k!) and my okies and to have season tickets to osu football (yes. a little facetious here. but not much.). this is a decision i'm very confident in. as you can tell from above, i'm probably in need of a change.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
where did my immunity go? typically, it's one really bad cold a year for me, but this year, i swear, it's been like one a month. and yall. seriously. it's old.
the test. yeah. i finally kind of admitted to myself that after 8 years in the classroom, i am ready for a change next year. so suddenly this specialist exam means a whole lot more to me than just a few extra bucks in the salary department. i'm not a good test taker in general - i mean i typically do okay, but i over analyze EVERYTHING (hello! english major in college!) - so then when you throw in the impact this could have ON THE REST OF MY LIFE. geez. stress.
but. i've been promised margaritas this evening. coupled with the nyquil i am taking all thoughts of this test will be long gone by about 7:30.
Monday, February 2, 2009
- penny on the train track - ben kweller (who like at least 7 people told me to check out last year, but i ignored them and now i'm all, why did i ignore them? since saturday, i've become OBSESSED.)
- the long way around - dixie chicks (this is off of their sassy last album and it is my FAVORITE song even though "not ready to make nice" got all of the attention.)
- think - aretha franklin (dude. did you hear they want to put the hat in the smithsonian? and she is still DEBATING?! does she not realize her hat could be alongside the fonze's jacket and the ruby slippers and archie bunker's chair? oh and yeah, some flag, too.)
- if i were a boy - beyonce (or sasha fierce? i don't understand the title of her new album)
- devil town - bright eyes (nothing smart to say here. just a damn good song.)
- shout out loud - amos lee (see above.)
- a long way to get - bob schneider (bob is hot. why would i not include his tunes?)
- what a catch, donnie - fall out boy (i think this title sounds like a billy joel title, which is probably why i like it.)
- halfway home - jason mraz (from his live at java joe's cd. if you don't understand the appeal of the mraz listen to this cd. boy can sing. and this song is the best example of it.)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
you are one of my favorite o/n stores and trust me, i have visited quite a few. for some reason, your store seems to be well- organized (like today in the clearance section how everything was organized BY COLOR - kudos n/o/n and your j crew-like ways!). generally, you are also able to avoid looking like yall just dumped the recently delivered sweaters onto the tables and said "screw it" to folding them since they are going to get unfolded within a few minutes anyway. so typically, i like walking around to see what all i can gather in my arms. and today, trust, i was doing quite a bit of gathering (yoga pants are SUPER cheap this week, how could i not?) and was having quite a good time . . .
until i was accosted by your overly enthusiastic salesperson, dan. dude. dan. when you asked me (okay, honestly, you SCREECHED it at me) the first five times "if i was having a pleasant shopping experience" and i answered "mmhmm, yep, yes" or just simply nodded i was being honest. but when you asked me for the 11th time, i'll be honest, my answer was a bold-faced lie. but it was a lie i felt like i had to tell because if i said no then HOLY CRAP you might want to HELP me and dan, dan, dan, that just wasn't going to happen. and hey. did you notice when you asked if i wanted to sign up for an o/n-gap-banana card how quickly i ran to the front of the store to get away from you? oh wait? you didn't? that's riiiiiiiiiiight, 'cause as soon as i said no, your head whipped around to the poor lady next to me and you started the whole accosting experience over with her.
so in conclusion n/o/n, i do not plan on boycotting your store. (um, hello? your yoga pants are my fave!) but if you could, please, just post dan's schedule so i know when i should avoid dropping by.
thanks ever so much,
dear chipotle man #1,
i love me a meal from chipotle. i do! and maybe since i go way too often (thanks missy!) it is more of a statement on my character that i can spit my order out and be in and out all in 3 minutes. but seriously my friend, i have NEVER waited behind someone so freakishly picky about their order in my life. and you were RUDE to the chick making it even though she was trying her hardest to make sure she followed all 138 of your directions.
also. you never said thank you to them. even though they spent 12 1/2 minutes waiting on you.
dear chipotle man #2,
first of all, let's get this straight, i was here first. wait in line, buddy. you are creeping me out a little when you come stand directly behind me, 'cause sir, that ain't how it works at chipotle. stand to my left, please. preferably at least 12 inches away. oh. or 2? seriously - creeping me out.
secondly, yes, i know that man #1 is FREAKING ANNOYING and slow, but just because i agree with you, please do not make it look like i am in cahoots with your verbal (and grammatically incorrect) assault on his pokiness. and c'mon people! what is with being rude to the workers today? making them dump your "carnitas bowl" (with no rice? what is that about? it's the best part of chipotle!) and start over because in the 30 seconds it sat there it got cold? whatever. also. that guy behind the counter? he speaks english. better than you, actually, so please quit talking to him like he's an idiot.
again, no thanks to your burrito maker? you suck.
editor's note: i would like to add that neither of the experiences to either of these establishments will prevent me from spending money there pretty much every thursday. it's what i do.