will you still respect me in the morning?

i am a girl with convictions, people. not saying that i always stick to everything i proclaim. for example, i use to think that it was horribly mean and unfair to big dogs to keep them in apartments. ha. yeah. i so don't live by that now . . . although i would say that i believe that it depends on the dog. blah blah. anyway. 

but for the most part, when i do feel strongly about something, my taurus stubbornness becomes pretty obvious.  here are a couple of standards that have remained pretty consistent for me -

• i don't eat any kind of pork products if i can help it.  (blame 9th grade biology and coach hedge.)
• other things i won't eat: shrimp, whipped cream/cool whip, cake with icing, meat on pizza...and that is just a small list. (and yes, i know that those of you who have known me forever are feeling like this is a rerun, but stay with me for about 100 more words.)
• you'll never see me wear gold and silver together.
• i will never purchase music by the following bands: u2, coldplay, radiohead, or metallica. 
• and just because i am an english teacher, that does not mean that i have a shrine to jane austen hiding in my closet.  in fact, i have gone the complete opposite direction  and have avoided all things jane.
• mizzou sucks.
• ou sucks.

but the last couple of days, i've kind of been having an inkling that goes against ONE of those items above.  so what happens if i change my mind and fail to uphold a conviction that i have, to be quite honest, been extremely vocal about?  does that make me a hypocrite?  will i be mocked?  do i care?

and that's where i am now.  i've decided that i'm gonna 'man up' and be honest about this change i am making, instead of sneaking around hiding it from people.  

so here goes: i am going to read a book by jane austen.  nowhere in that statement do i say that i am going to LIKE the book i read, but i am going to actually pick one up and muscle my way through it.  i'm torn, though, in deciding which book to read.  i do know it will be one of these three: mansfield park, emma, or pride and prejudice.  (it will NOT be sense and sensibility - no, don't even try to get me to change my mind - since being forced to watch that movie for credit in senior english was the equivalent of me pulling out my eye lashes one by one.) 

omg.  if i'm willing to start changing, even just a little bit, does this mean i might vote republican this year?